Working Girl

So i have officially withdrawn from school. Its not my proudest moment but what to do ya know.
I havent been updating much lately. Partly cause i'm real busy and partly cause i'm lazy.
Anyways, there nothing real interesting to blog about.

So i was looking through some poly websites found out that i have to register through DAE. I have to actually go directly to the school and apply for a place in whatever course. Its troublesome but i'd do anything to go back to school.

So i'm not currently looking for a full time job, so hopefully i'll get some really good paying job.

Good luck to whoever is taking O level english paper tomorrow.
I dont actually have anything to blog about so... Byeee.

Dash across me

Since i'm a real good friend and since i really dont want my friend to be dressing inappropriately, i'm updating my blog. I dont really have anything to update about but, for the sake of my dear-want-to-be-naked-friend, i will come out with shit.

So i went to school today to get my withdrawal finalised and stuff. But i have to meet with the director and stuff bring my parents give a damn good reason why i want to quit. I dont fucking understand. Its not like they have the power to go against my will, so why dont they just fucking sign the paper and get it over with. And it'll be stupid if they think they can change my mind. I mean if i didnt actually want this i wouldn't have done it right. Goddddddd. Why can't quitting school be easy like in the old days. You just tell the office you're quitting sign the papers get your parents to sign the papers and done. Since when did the process of quitting school required an interview. Its not a fucking job.

I really seem determined to quit school but really its pretty heartbreaking. Walking through the corridors and passing my old classes, i actually miss waking up early.
But that feeling last for a while. When it comes to the morning itself, quitting school seems like a real good idea.

I really miss my classmates. I miss shannon, i miss yunwei, i miss juany, i miss nasuha. I actually miss the crazy boys in my class.
But fuck i rather die than stay in this course for the next 2 years.
My blog is in need of pictures. I should go out and bring my camera one of these days.

As of late

Someone told me, my blog needs pictures. So im going to post up dued pictures, even though im superrrr tired from working.
And oh, hot hot guys are working at my place. Makes my working experience more exciting and mouth watering. Not as in the food.
So these are pictures from last monday, or wednesday, im not sure. And marcus birthday.
Fuck, im really tired.
So i've been thinking. Since im going to quit school, i should get a better job. Like 1K per month kind of better job. Maybe i'll go back to zara.
I went to work with colourful nails and they've been chipping off. Which might end up in the food i serve. But i don't think acetone can kill. I'm kinda sleepy, and still contemplating whether i want to upload photos, but i am. I should.

Honestly

To be really honest right now, I still feel like shit. And going out today did help... Like a bit.
And my clothes are disappearing, I would wear them and put it in the dirty laundry basket and they'll neverrrrrrr come back. Like seriously, i'll never find them. Like this blue skirt i have, i dnt know where it is and ive been looking for it for like a few months now.
PLUS, i lost my other TCC uniform, so now i only have one which is kinda disgusting cause there like chocalate marks on it cause i'm kinda clumsy and also my shirt's kinda thirsty and drinks will always somehow end up on my uniform.
I poured iced mocha on some guy's jeans the other day, he wasnt very happy.
My sister's being fucking irritating like webcaming and making so much noise. FUCK LAH, making me more fucking depressed.
I dont know... I'm feel so fucked up right now. I'm sorry that i do but i do. And dont think im not trying to make myself feel better. I really am trying my best.
I actually watched comedies yesterday, jokes just arent jokes anymore.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, fucking irritating sisterrrrrr, I fucking want to kill her.

Oh regrets, go away.

So,i've been thinking alot. And i regretting alot of things right now... Like not studying. I'm in a different class now taking the same modules and i feel like crying.
I dont know.. I think i need to sleep, like get this off my mind. I'm getting so stressed i want to die.
My fucking phone is still not fucking working. Okay not my phone, fucking starhub. I can receive calls and messages but i cant call nor text. So if i dont reply you now you know the answer. Or maybe i just dnt want to reply you.
Fake, i'm not mean. And i dont do that shit unless like the person is superrrrr lame and superrrrr irritating i wont reply the person like at all.
I have pictures but im way to lazy to post them up.
Yeah, i'm going to sleep it off. I'm really upset with myself right now. I really really really want to die. Like really. I want to jump in front of an approaching train, i want to jump off the highest building, i want to shoot myself. I pretty much want to die.
If someone wanted to do me a favour, I have them all listed here. Push me in front of a train, i dnt care anymore.
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